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好久沒有在LIVEJOURNAL寫東西了。剛才媽媽和我在討論PETER他們家生意
越好﹐才會進來THE COUNTRY來看房子。媽媽又變得很哀愁﹐說我們先在的經濟情況
這麼不好。...now i dont want to write lol
越好﹐才會進來THE COUNTRY來看房子。媽媽又變得很哀愁﹐說我們先在的經濟情況
這麼不好。...now i dont want to write lol
I'm so fustrated wiht the rooming situation
ahhh
ahhh
I think I'm just going to use this as a food diary. So here it goes!
Food consumption 5/8/08:
-1 hardboiled egg
-1 piece of korean pork
-1 bowl of red bean barley sweet soup
-4 whole wheat crackers
-3 spoonfuls of rice
-1 portion of tomato fried eggs
-1 portion of green vegetable
-4 pieces of drunk chicken
-1/3 papaya
I couldn't help but to eat lunch today. I was so hungry. My stomach growled in 3rd so loudly. I was sooo embarrassed. But I'm excited about tomorrow. I am going to hang out with Daniel. Yay! Now...how to tell mother? ahhaha
ok present weight 121-123 which means 121 in the mornings
Food Consumption for 5/7:
-hardboiled egg
-2 pieces of korean pork
-one spoonful of red bean barley soup
-1 90 calorie chewys bar
-3 whole grain asian crackers
-1 piece of steak
-one portion of pasta
-one portion of broccli
-1/3 papaya
What does it take to lose weight? Can I not eat at all? This is so frustrating.
Food Cravings (but can not eat!):
-kfc biscuits, mash potato, chicken
-red lobster biscuits
-asian bakery coffee cake roll
-peanut butter jelly sandwhich (with a lot of peanut butter and jelly)
-a lot of crackers
What else do I want?
- more hang out date things with Daniel
- to be 117 pounds
- to look hot in my prom dress
- to go on the prom limo without having to pay
- to eat as much as I want while losing weight
- to get a 4 on my ap rhet test
overwhelmed.
I think I have been consumed. Consumed by an obsession to lose weight. Well its for a good cause. I feel like my body has taken a toll since the breakup. I ate too much and my weight went up to nearly 130 pounds. I havent eaten lunch all week and I've been doing at least 16 minutes of treadmill a day. I lost 7 pounds so far. So that is around 123. I feel like I have a new obsession with numbers. How much I weigh. How much calories I take in. How many can I burn on the treadmill. So i think i set my goal at 117. So that means six pounds more. I am going to do some stats. Hopefully, finish up 2006 and then go walk on the treadmill. I wonder if I should do anything rigorous. I had two crackers, two tangerines, and emergen-c today. I know I might reach a plateau weight soon. why?
Because AP tests are coming up. There is Gov on Monday morning and stats on Tuesday afternoon which means I have to eat a big breakfast on monday morning and eat big lunch on Tuesday. Which will definitelyh slow down the pace of my diet.
Why am I on this big diet?
Well the prom dress is definitely a big part of it. On Thursday ma went around borrowing dresses from Amy ah yi and fanny ah yi. Amy ah yi's dresses were hideous. They were so ugly. But Fanny ah yi's dresses were so pretty. There are three: one red strapless, one black strapless, and one long black spaghetti strap. When I put it on, I knew it was the one. It's so gorgeous. It's like the type that will cost $200+. Its long and black with beading all down the front and back, but slanting down from my left thigh to the middle of my right calf. then theres this sheer black material hanging down. The front chest part sort of drapes down. I have to say i look pretty good in it. So if I at least get my weight down to 120, I won't have a stomach at all. I'm so excited.
Prom.
I'm really very excited about prom. Cynthia's actually going! Chris Lee from Troy asked her. We are probably going in the same group with Oliver/Shirley, Michael/grace, Johnny/Chorok, Bediones/date, Sharon/bf. So it is all very exciting.
other stuff
So yesterday was really fun. After school, I went out with Daniel. We were getting out of the senior parking lot and Daniel asked," Isnt that your car?" I shook my head, no way, but, alas, it was my mom. I slid down into my seat. Then as we go out to go to chipotle. I called my i was going to eat lunch with Daniel and friends. (a lie). Surprisingly, she was totally cool with it. Afterwards he came over and we hung out until 5. Ma was totally ok with it, so im pretty surprised. But either way, I think this new crush is good for me.
I think I have been consumed. Consumed by an obsession to lose weight. Well its for a good cause. I feel like my body has taken a toll since the breakup. I ate too much and my weight went up to nearly 130 pounds. I havent eaten lunch all week and I've been doing at least 16 minutes of treadmill a day. I lost 7 pounds so far. So that is around 123. I feel like I have a new obsession with numbers. How much I weigh. How much calories I take in. How many can I burn on the treadmill. So i think i set my goal at 117. So that means six pounds more. I am going to do some stats. Hopefully, finish up 2006 and then go walk on the treadmill. I wonder if I should do anything rigorous. I had two crackers, two tangerines, and emergen-c today. I know I might reach a plateau weight soon. why?
Because AP tests are coming up. There is Gov on Monday morning and stats on Tuesday afternoon which means I have to eat a big breakfast on monday morning and eat big lunch on Tuesday. Which will definitelyh slow down the pace of my diet.
Why am I on this big diet?
Well the prom dress is definitely a big part of it. On Thursday ma went around borrowing dresses from Amy ah yi and fanny ah yi. Amy ah yi's dresses were hideous. They were so ugly. But Fanny ah yi's dresses were so pretty. There are three: one red strapless, one black strapless, and one long black spaghetti strap. When I put it on, I knew it was the one. It's so gorgeous. It's like the type that will cost $200+. Its long and black with beading all down the front and back, but slanting down from my left thigh to the middle of my right calf. then theres this sheer black material hanging down. The front chest part sort of drapes down. I have to say i look pretty good in it. So if I at least get my weight down to 120, I won't have a stomach at all. I'm so excited.
Prom.
I'm really very excited about prom. Cynthia's actually going! Chris Lee from Troy asked her. We are probably going in the same group with Oliver/Shirley, Michael/grace, Johnny/Chorok, Bediones/date, Sharon/bf. So it is all very exciting.
other stuff
So yesterday was really fun. After school, I went out with Daniel. We were getting out of the senior parking lot and Daniel asked," Isnt that your car?" I shook my head, no way, but, alas, it was my mom. I slid down into my seat. Then as we go out to go to chipotle. I called my i was going to eat lunch with Daniel and friends. (a lie). Surprisingly, she was totally cool with it. Afterwards he came over and we hung out until 5. Ma was totally ok with it, so im pretty surprised. But either way, I think this new crush is good for me.
prom causes a lot of drama. im going with neel because were both comfortable with each other. i asked him online, which apparently was too bad since he was going to ask me formally but i ruined it.
But what I really wanted to talk about today is the fact that I think I have a new crush. Yay!
Well it started on Thursday. Yes, I know its sudden, but I have this feeling. I was talking to Beatrice and finally confirmed/realized that Daniel
Wu in my econ class was the Daniel Wu I had a crush on in second grade. It was all pretty exciting and funny. I told him that and he said I dont remember you. Then he said but I do remember there was a girl named Vicki i had a crush on...and i was like that's me! So it was all dandy and funny. He got my sn that night, and we talked during friday at lunch. He asked me to hang out afterschool but i didnt wnat to ask ma. But on Saturday, Grace canceled on me about going out., so I was pretty bored. Daniel suggested we go hang out, so I told ma i was gonna study rhet and hung out wiht Daniel. We tlaked about stuff and just things in general. Then we ate at cpk. It was fun. He's a really easy going guy, and he knows his prom stuff and how to do things right haha. He would have been a good prom date actually.
So. yah. That's my little crush story. It's fun. But I don't think I'm going to take it too seriously. Just have fun. Senior year baby!
But what I really wanted to talk about today is the fact that I think I have a new crush. Yay!
Well it started on Thursday. Yes, I know its sudden, but I have this feeling. I was talking to Beatrice and finally confirmed/realized that Daniel
Wu in my econ class was the Daniel Wu I had a crush on in second grade. It was all pretty exciting and funny. I told him that and he said I dont remember you. Then he said but I do remember there was a girl named Vicki i had a crush on...and i was like that's me! So it was all dandy and funny. He got my sn that night, and we talked during friday at lunch. He asked me to hang out afterschool but i didnt wnat to ask ma. But on Saturday, Grace canceled on me about going out., so I was pretty bored. Daniel suggested we go hang out, so I told ma i was gonna study rhet and hung out wiht Daniel. We tlaked about stuff and just things in general. Then we ate at cpk. It was fun. He's a really easy going guy, and he knows his prom stuff and how to do things right haha. He would have been a good prom date actually.
So. yah. That's my little crush story. It's fun. But I don't think I'm going to take it too seriously. Just have fun. Senior year baby!
so this is what it feels like. i had a bad day today. 1st the usb people told me i was in top 10 and apparently im not. cause they didnt even show my pic at the rally. also...i got rejected my stanford. i mean i wasnt surprised. its just the fact that apparently this guy herry got accepted.
his stats:
sat 2250
4.0 gpa
track team captain
cross country team captain
french club officer
i dont think i have anythign to lose to that. maybe a bit lacking on the leadership. but i dont know anymroe. this is such a rejection day. i hate this feeling. it sucks liek crap. its like wham wham in your gut. and youre left with this empty feeling. youre lost. and the world is still reeling and moving. and you have no choice but to move with it.
im also fucking worried about raising my rhet grade
its so low
sosoososos low
i feel shitty
至少還有你- i love this song
feelings and thoughts. it hurts. im weak.
i really cant do anythign about it if he doenst like me anymore. feelings cant be forced. at least it was a pleasant breakup.
im strong.
its just everything he said to me before was a lie.
he promised me he wouldnt break my heart.
he told me he loved me.
but he broke my heart.
and he doesnt love me.
feelings and thoughts. it hurts. im weak.
i really cant do anythign about it if he doenst like me anymore. feelings cant be forced. at least it was a pleasant breakup.
im strong.
its just everything he said to me before was a lie.
he promised me he wouldnt break my heart.
he told me he loved me.
but he broke my heart.
and he doesnt love me.
so yesterday neel broke up with me
he took me home after fourth and heres how it went
him: so there is no right time to do this but i need to tell you
me: ?
him: i dont have romantic feelings for you anymore. and i dont think its fair if i didnt tell you
me: o ok
him: but youre pretty and smart but i dont know why i cant like you
me: o ok so you wanna break up
him: yah
me: ok
him: you gonna be ok
me: i dunno
then im not sure what happened
me: thanks for being honest
him: yah
thats how he broke up with me
Im hurting. it doesnt feel good. but ill get over it. i have to pretend im strong now. pretend im not greatly overwhelmingly affected by this. Mondays gonna suck. were friends now. he says close friends. but i think im gonna be hurt when he talks to other girls. thats the only thing im afraid of really. other than that i have peter brandon cynthia. mum brian. maybe i can raise my stats grade and rhet grade. maybe i can lose some weight. i dont have a prom date now either. frivolous me. im gonna handle this.
he took me home after fourth and heres how it went
him: so there is no right time to do this but i need to tell you
me: ?
him: i dont have romantic feelings for you anymore. and i dont think its fair if i didnt tell you
me: o ok
him: but youre pretty and smart but i dont know why i cant like you
me: o ok so you wanna break up
him: yah
me: ok
him: you gonna be ok
me: i dunno
then im not sure what happened
me: thanks for being honest
him: yah
thats how he broke up with me
Im hurting. it doesnt feel good. but ill get over it. i have to pretend im strong now. pretend im not greatly overwhelmingly affected by this. Mondays gonna suck. were friends now. he says close friends. but i think im gonna be hurt when he talks to other girls. thats the only thing im afraid of really. other than that i have peter brandon cynthia. mum brian. maybe i can raise my stats grade and rhet grade. maybe i can lose some weight. i dont have a prom date now either. frivolous me. im gonna handle this.
its a new semester. i scraped by with A's last semester. now i have 4 classes and 1 class at mtsac. Im taking mtsac on mondays and wednesdays. so this week at left right before lunch so i was unable to spend lunch wiht neel. i didnt see him on tuesday either cause it was a late start and i had formosa. and today when i could finally stay for lunch he says he has to leave. i dont know whats happening but it like hes not with me when were together. he seems like xin bu zai yen. im getting anxious. even online. he doenst really respond to me. i tried to ask him what was wrong. but he doesnt know. even yesterday i went to watch their tennis match. he adn my bro lost. but he didnt even come up to talk to me. maybe i didnt make an effort to go up to him. but i guess im jsut kinda insecure at the moment. does he not like me anymore? is there something going on in his life he doesnt want to tell me. i have no idea but i just feel really pretty lost and confused right now. i cant even take my mind of this since i finished my latest drama. haha im such a sad sad person.
So many things lately...
1. Computer died again. This is the second one in the span of about a month. Maybe I'm just doomed. I'm using ma's laptop. everything is so...flat and fat lol. kind of cool though
2. Finals are coming up this week. My stats grade seems to be in most danger since i dont even know what it is. I wasted yesterday watching detective conan anime. I cant help it its so good, but yah. i went throught the stats vocab. I just need to review my notes and hewits study guide now. Oyah i also have to go through 130 words for gov study guide. Good thing i already did 50. So Tues is stats. Wednesday is gov and english. Thursday is spanish.
3. FAFSA i dont know why but this is bugging me a lot. Ma keeps dragging it out. well we cant really fill out the form without our tax returns. But its the fact that she doesnt care about the deadline for usc and seems to think its ok to let it pass. God lol. She was so anal about apps and now its liek fafsa doenst matter. Hello? its the money that matters...god
4. upcoming events. apparently im going to winter formal. yay. Kai is freaking out about arrangements already. She wants limo pictures and restaurant. Her plan is always complicated and expensive. Peter says her plans not gonna work cause her restaurant is too far. im not sure what to do. Also my 18th bday is coming up. I'm going to have a joint celebration with peter. Guest list is neel, cynthia, brandon, emily, cecilia, royce, and amanda (peters wf date). yah sounds good? were gonna movie, dinner at cpk, and then my house. yay
I just finished watching the japanese drama hana kimi. I must say the japanese version was far better than the taiwanese version with ella and wu chun. The japanese main characters were much better looking first of all. The girl was really cute and the guy was wayyy cute. He's called oguri shun in real life and sano in the show. Ella just isnt appealing looking, i have to say. The japanese version was also way less laggy and it was action packed in every episode. The taiwanese version was the complete opposite and had a horrible cliffhanger lame excuse ending. The japanese one had a nice long final goodbye. I didnt even get that sad depressing feeling i usually get at the end of dramas i finish. My admiration of japanese dramas is increasing greatly. I've only watched one other jap drama before a while back. It was called "Stand Up!!". There was a lot of sexual content. It was kind of like a japanese "american Pie" with four guys trying to lose their virginities. But somehow it just seemed more clean not that dirty, just silly. Either way i think i will start watching more jap dramas now.
Also, on another note, SCHOOL! we have already switched from lee's gov class to Wan's econ class. Mrs. wan is a strange being i must say. She reminds me of my aunts and cousins from taiwan because well shes just so asian. We started class by talking about abortion. She talks way to fast i must say. i must listen hard to follow. I want to do super well in that class and beat peter. but yah. Also im really worried about Gov final...i must ask lee for study guide!
And onto another topic! peter asked a white girl to winter formal. At first she told him she would tell him the answer later. then yesterday she came by and told him yes. Even though i laugh at him and such, im really glad the girl said yes. He's been looking forward to wf. lol
Also, on another note, SCHOOL! we have already switched from lee's gov class to Wan's econ class. Mrs. wan is a strange being i must say. She reminds me of my aunts and cousins from taiwan because well shes just so asian. We started class by talking about abortion. She talks way to fast i must say. i must listen hard to follow. I want to do super well in that class and beat peter. but yah. Also im really worried about Gov final...i must ask lee for study guide!
And onto another topic! peter asked a white girl to winter formal. At first she told him she would tell him the answer later. then yesterday she came by and told him yes. Even though i laugh at him and such, im really glad the girl said yes. He's been looking forward to wf. lol
Why is it that i get frustrated so much more often and so much more easily nowadays?
Well my mother doesnt help. Thats for sure. I'm supposed to go to Taiwan in the summer, but i only want to go for 2 weeks to play and relax and eat and all that fun stuff. Now my mum says that i should go back to learn chinese in the summer. Thats utterly ridiculous. Thats means i spend aroudn 4-6 weeks at the least there, and waste half of my precious summer in hot sweltering sun without my friends. This is my last summer and my last time to relax. Once again, my mother is trying to make plans for me and mold me into what she thinks is good and not good. Plus summer is basically my last time to spend with neel. i dont know what will happen after.
Another dilemma i have is what do second semester. i can take four periods and go to mtsac for advanced bio. however the schedule for bio is so hectic. It's liek 4 hours for 2 days a week on schoolnights. i dunno if i can handle it. Mostly i dont know if i want to handle it. My other choice is to take 5 periods and get a job. thats also time consuming but i think i might enjoy that more. Of course i have to put that through my mother. god. lol I dont even want to talk to her.
Well my mother doesnt help. Thats for sure. I'm supposed to go to Taiwan in the summer, but i only want to go for 2 weeks to play and relax and eat and all that fun stuff. Now my mum says that i should go back to learn chinese in the summer. Thats utterly ridiculous. Thats means i spend aroudn 4-6 weeks at the least there, and waste half of my precious summer in hot sweltering sun without my friends. This is my last summer and my last time to relax. Once again, my mother is trying to make plans for me and mold me into what she thinks is good and not good. Plus summer is basically my last time to spend with neel. i dont know what will happen after.
Another dilemma i have is what do second semester. i can take four periods and go to mtsac for advanced bio. however the schedule for bio is so hectic. It's liek 4 hours for 2 days a week on schoolnights. i dunno if i can handle it. Mostly i dont know if i want to handle it. My other choice is to take 5 periods and get a job. thats also time consuming but i think i might enjoy that more. Of course i have to put that through my mother. god. lol I dont even want to talk to her.
I'm kinda pissed. i mean if i say i dont wanna go hang out wiht you it doenst mean that you should go out with your friends the very next possible second. this is stupid. i mean i know i said i didnt want to move but i guess its my fault anyways. i guess im just stupid. I'll just blame it on my period then i suppose. I'm so tired of staying at home, but it's my fault anyways because i chose to. I'm supposed to hang out with cynthia tomorrow. However, i want to just hang out with you because i miss you so much. i dont know why i was so lazy about not going out today. sigh. i guess this is what happens when youre retarded.
im really very bored. Theres only 3 days left of break. I have two more problems of stats left. I should study for gov but i have no idea where to start. i dunno. Neel should come over, but he hasnt mentioned coming. I dont want to ask my mum either. I want to watch a new show, but there arent any good ones. Well me and brian watched the singing competition today. it was pretty good.
but yah ...so bored. i dont want break to be over though. dont want to go to school. dont want to take finals
my hands are cold. i miss neel.
but yah ...so bored. i dont want break to be over though. dont want to go to school. dont want to take finals
my hands are cold. i miss neel.
the last few days have been essentially uneventful
monday: I went to the Richard Nixon Library with Neel, oliver, and michael. Michael was making completely inappropriate sexual jokes as usual. We only went for the extra credit for gov. Ironically, the only exhibit we wanted to see was watergate and it was "under construction". It was one of the most boring museums ive ever been to. There were a billion random christmas trees everwhere though. At night, we went to austins house and ate a lot of food. We watched some tennis and hannah montana. then onto 2008!
tuesday: stayed home all day like a vegetable watching "my lucky star". It's a really good drama. One of the best I have seen. It's actually not draggy like the rest. The main girl is korean which is intereresting since its a taiwanese drama.
wednesday: Neel picked me up in the morning, and we went to mtsac to get our transcript. Nothing exciting but still got to spend time with him. I got my belated x'mas present from him. It was two pairs of earrings. One was turtles and the other was sunflowers. There actually pretty cute. I must not be lazy and make an effort to wear earrings.
today: absolutely nothing. i feel a little sick actually. I finished "my lucky star" last night, so now i dont have anythign to do. good job vicki. good job.
monday: I went to the Richard Nixon Library with Neel, oliver, and michael. Michael was making completely inappropriate sexual jokes as usual. We only went for the extra credit for gov. Ironically, the only exhibit we wanted to see was watergate and it was "under construction". It was one of the most boring museums ive ever been to. There were a billion random christmas trees everwhere though. At night, we went to austins house and ate a lot of food. We watched some tennis and hannah montana. then onto 2008!
tuesday: stayed home all day like a vegetable watching "my lucky star". It's a really good drama. One of the best I have seen. It's actually not draggy like the rest. The main girl is korean which is intereresting since its a taiwanese drama.
wednesday: Neel picked me up in the morning, and we went to mtsac to get our transcript. Nothing exciting but still got to spend time with him. I got my belated x'mas present from him. It was two pairs of earrings. One was turtles and the other was sunflowers. There actually pretty cute. I must not be lazy and make an effort to wear earrings.
today: absolutely nothing. i feel a little sick actually. I finished "my lucky star" last night, so now i dont have anythign to do. good job vicki. good job.
3 month
-Neel and i went to watch movies. we movie-hopped. yay!
- "i am legend" : mediocre. well it was almost boring. Really very cliche.
- "juno" : It's about this girl who gets pregnant and she's 16. It was really quite interesting. I liked it. Wry sexual humor. Total sarcasm.
Then at night, Dan and Vincent came to dinner. then brian jumped on the bed in the guest room. and it collapsed. so we have to spend the whole night fixing it. Hes kinda retarded sometimes. He still thinks he's five. lol
as a sort of remembrance...heres some aim logs of how we got together ..i think its in the wrong order:
-Neel and i went to watch movies. we movie-hopped. yay!
- "i am legend" : mediocre. well it was almost boring. Really very cliche.
- "juno" : It's about this girl who gets pregnant and she's 16. It was really quite interesting. I liked it. Wry sexual humor. Total sarcasm.
Then at night, Dan and Vincent came to dinner. then brian jumped on the bed in the guest room. and it collapsed. so we have to spend the whole night fixing it. Hes kinda retarded sometimes. He still thinks he's five. lol
as a sort of remembrance...heres some aim logs of how we got together ..i think its in the wrong order:
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:52 PM): | i felt |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:53 PM): | so much emotion |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:55 PM): | in the dream |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:14:06 PM): | and when i woke up |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:14:09 PM): | i wa just like |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:14:11 PM): | what the hell was that |
| white carrot (11:14:23 PM): | lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:14:37 PM): | i dont know what im supposed to say |
| white carrot (11:14:43 PM): | i dont know either |
| white carrot (11:15:02 PM): | ive never done this before |
| white carrot (11:15:25 PM): | dont you think its awkward? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:15:28 PM): | neither have i |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:15:31 PM): | yes this is quite awkward |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:15:41 PM): | i thought you didnt like me |
| white carrot (11:15:53 PM): | how could you think that lol |
| white carrot (11:16:05 PM): | isnt it kinda obvious lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:16:27 PM): | like |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:16:29 PM): | how would it be obvious |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:16:35 PM): | did you think i liked you? |
| white carrot (11:16:51 PM): | no..lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:01 PM): | what |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:02 PM): | are you seirous |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:03 PM): | lol |
| white carrot (11:17:09 PM): | i mean..like i kinda wasnt sure |
| white carrot (11:17:21 PM): | you talk to a lot of girls lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:42 PM): | lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:49 PM): | that doesnt mean anything |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:17:59 PM): | like |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:06 PM): | i wanted to ask you to play tennis every day |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:08 PM): | so i could see you |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:14 PM): | but when i asked you once |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:15 PM): | you were like |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:17 PM): | i have to do psat |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:22 PM): | and i thought you just didnt want to do it |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:29 PM): | so i was like neel dont ask again |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:30 PM): | dont be an idiot |
| white carrot (11:18:41 PM): | really? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:18:46 PM): | yea |
| white carrot (11:18:59 PM): | lol i wanna hang out with you too |
| white carrot (11:19:16 PM): | i was like..why arent you asking lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:26 PM): | like every time iw as like |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:29 PM): | i wanna play tennis |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:35 PM): | i was hoping youd say im going right now to serve |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:36 PM): | or something |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:38 PM): | wanna play |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:19:56 PM): | but you never did lol |
| white carrot (11:20:07 PM): | i wanted to say that..but i thought you meant |
| white carrot (11:20:10 PM): | like with agam lol |
| white carrot (11:20:13 PM): | like real tennis |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:23 PM): | lol no |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:24 PM): | i dont care |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:34 PM): | about agam |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:35 PM): | lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:39 PM): | or anybody |
| white carrot (11:20:46 PM): | lol |
| white carrot (11:20:56 PM): | so um hhaa |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:20:59 PM): | this is so weird |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:01 PM): | im like shaking |
| white carrot (11:21:11 PM): | does you heart feel faster? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:16 PM): | yes |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:18 PM): | my heart is beating |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:21 PM): | racecar |
| white carrot (11:21:27 PM): | yah...same hear |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:30 PM): | im trying to slow it down |
| white carrot (11:21:36 PM): | lol..how do you do that |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:41 PM): | uh |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:44 PM): | i dont know |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:21:54 PM): | i really didnt think you liked me at all |
| crzyN3m3s1s (10:58:31 PM): | communication is key |
| white carrot (10:59:00 PM): | you think so? lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (10:59:12 PM): | yess |
| white carrot (11:00:33 PM): | should i communicate? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:00:50 PM): | yea |
| white carrot (11:01:06 PM): | ok sir |
| white carrot (11:02:41 PM): | um |
| white carrot (11:02:56 PM): | this is awkward |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:04:33 PM): | just say it |
| white carrot (11:04:50 PM): | im kinda pissed about hc lol |
| white carrot (11:04:57 PM): | you gave me a crappy answer |
| white carrot (11:05:36 PM): | ...im being a bitch |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:05:47 PM): | no |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:05:51 PM): | what i meant was |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:05:52 PM): | no |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:05:55 PM): | im not going to homecoming |
| white carrot (11:06:07 PM): | mm ok |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:06:12 PM): | sorry |
| white carrot (11:06:18 PM): | its ok |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:06:29 PM): | thats why you were mad? |
| white carrot (11:06:44 PM): | not only because of that |
| white carrot (11:06:56 PM): | that would be really dumb lol |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:07:10 PM): | then what else is up |
| white carrot (11:07:17 PM): | tennis serves |
| white carrot (11:07:31 PM): | im pissed i cant get it together |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:07:43 PM): | serves are frustrating ah |
| white carrot (11:07:48 PM): | lol |
| white carrot (11:07:54 PM): | just things |
| white carrot (11:08:10 PM): | hmm |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:09:18 PM): | why was that awkward for you |
| white carrot (11:09:36 PM): | i dont know |
| white carrot (11:09:39 PM): | im a girl |
| white carrot (11:09:43 PM): | its weird |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:10:04 PM): | yeah it is |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:10:15 PM): | but i dont understand |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:10:16 PM): | lol |
| white carrot (11:10:21 PM): | i dont either |
| white carrot (11:10:39 PM): | i like you a lot |
| white carrot (11:10:43 PM): | it makes me tired |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:10:56 PM): | it makes you tired? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:11:16 PM): | i like you too |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:11:20 PM): | but how does it make you tired |
| white carrot (11:12:20 PM): | just thinking about someone constantly |
| white carrot (11:12:44 PM): | like its tiring but its nice feeling |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:04 PM): | lol i think about you a lot |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:06 PM): | you have no idea |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:18 PM): | it's kind of |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:19 PM): | stupid |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:33 PM): | especially during that dream |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:35 PM): | i told you about |
| white carrot (11:13:41 PM): | the oliver one? |
| crzyN3m3s1s (11:13:44 PM): | yeah |
i just finished watching the movie "secret". The lead actor was jay chou, and i think he had a hand in writing the script. He definitely contributed to the song writing aspect of it.
It was a great movie. The scenery was beautiful. But it was the plot that caught me. it was so...meng huan or fantasy-like. The concept was that a if someone played a song on the special piano they could move throught time at will. At first the girl played and went to the future and fell in love with jay. Then when jay realized what happened he went back in time to be with her.
The idea was so whimsical. Its like a fairy tale. So beautiful. I love the theme song too. The girl's haircut was cute too. Maybe i will get my hair cut like hers.
It was a great movie. The scenery was beautiful. But it was the plot that caught me. it was so...meng huan or fantasy-like. The concept was that a if someone played a song on the special piano they could move throught time at will. At first the girl played and went to the future and fell in love with jay. Then when jay realized what happened he went back in time to be with her.
The idea was so whimsical. Its like a fairy tale. So beautiful. I love the theme song too. The girl's haircut was cute too. Maybe i will get my hair cut like hers.
I keep fighting with my mum nowadays. This morning when I was peeling eggs, we had another spat about apps. She thinks i spend too much time talking to neel. She has so many requests and expectations of me. Maybe its because i set my standards really high. Now that i want to slack off, it's not possible. I'm so tired of working hard, staying up late, proofreading, checkin on tests, and being good in general.
I'm not turning wild by all means, but i just want to have so freedom. Freedom to go out, stay out late, go out every weekend, or whenever i want. I want to have that incredible senior year. My last year of fun.
I'm also tired of all the things she says about neel. He's not the problem. The slacking off is from me. It's because im tired of this shit. But i know my mum loves me. All the nagging and the reprimanding is just her way of showing it. She is so much better than so many of those asian moms out there. She's open minded and patient beyond human belief.
How does she put up with me?
i wanted to use this thing as an outlet for my feelings. That sounds incredibly corny but i guess i need something.
I'm not turning wild by all means, but i just want to have so freedom. Freedom to go out, stay out late, go out every weekend, or whenever i want. I want to have that incredible senior year. My last year of fun.
I'm also tired of all the things she says about neel. He's not the problem. The slacking off is from me. It's because im tired of this shit. But i know my mum loves me. All the nagging and the reprimanding is just her way of showing it. She is so much better than so many of those asian moms out there. She's open minded and patient beyond human belief.
How does she put up with me?
i wanted to use this thing as an outlet for my feelings. That sounds incredibly corny but i guess i need something.
